The Non-Essentials-by Gina

Here is my list of non-essential things one misses when their husband dies and they had no life insurance.

(Just to clarify- Of course the thing I miss most is Blair and all that entails, but this list is simply NON-ESSENTIAL things, things people can live without but also make life just a little more bearable when you have them.)

1. Manicure/Pedicure. I really miss looking down at my feet and smiling because my toes look so pretty.

2. A clean house. I used to think my house was a mess when I had a cleaning lady every other week.  But now that I can no longer afford her I am coming face to face with what "a dirty house" really means.

3. New shoes.  I really need some, but I am very picky and so time is needed to find them, not to mention the money to pay for them.

4. Time to see my chiropractor. Between my new full time work and my limosine chauffering the kids to their many commitments, it has been impossible to make an appointment.  And my body is aching.  Those little preschoolers all day are really challenging my physical being.

5. Time to read a book. Not that I have any one book in mind, maybe I just miss the chance to lay down for a few minutes without my mind rambling off the list of TO DO's that never seem to disappear.

6. A night out to see a movie without my kids.  A little adult time.

7. A moment to lay on my bed and write down in this blog all the things that I need to say but can't find the time to jot down.

8. A chance to travel.  I miss this very much, however I also think it is still difficult to do without missing Blair so much.  So maybe this one is not sooo pressing. We do head out to Las Vegas next week for a dance competition/convention for Annabel, but Vegas was not really the destination I was dreaming about.  We were thinking more along the lines of a Greek island or Italy.

Actually as I am making this list I realize even though I miss these things very much, they are probably just the tip of the iceberg.  As my daughter says "Mom it always comes back to Dad" and she is right.  These non-essentials are really nothing compared to the aching I have when I think of our life with Blair and now our life without.

Yes we are okay, but the financial strain is tough and the house without him in it just isn't really the same.

So there you have it.

 

 

 

Comments

[Terry Michaels]

Gina, I have an idea...perhaps you could put these items on a 'wish list' for the holidays and ask your family (and friends) to provide any (or all) of these items rather than a 'conventional' gift. It would mean more to you than say a fruitcake or coffee mug.

I like your list. And for the record, I don't think that any of them are NON-essentials. Maybe not essential like breathing or paying rent/house payment, or eating, but being able to take care of yourself is indeed essential.

People first...that includes you.